The Happiest Place on Earth July 12, 2006
Posted by hiddenstream in About Me, Daily Happenings, Disney World, Personal, Vacations.4 comments
First thing tomorrow, I am off to the magical world of Disney and the last family vacation I will take for a long while. With me in full-time school and my brother Chris doing the whole teenage thing, my family has begun to accept that this is a vacation to treasure; it may be the end of those innocent years.
Another reason to treasure it: I am 21 years of age and have never been to Disney. Not Disney World, not Disney Land. I have never experienced the world of imagination. But tomorrow, at 6am, I depart for Walt’s utopian fairyland. I cannot express my intense excitement. I know all these years of expectations are probably going to let me down, but I don’t mind. I am going to get my mouse ears and take a unbelievable amount of pictures. Plus, it gives me an excuse to get new sneakers. (For all the walking of course!)
There will probably be a serious lack of blogging while in Orlando, unless I can get a hold on a decent internet connection, which is doubtful. When I get back, I am due to move out of my apartment and on top of that, school is back in session on the 14th of August. Between now and then, life is bound to be hectic. There will be lot’s of random posting whenever possible. Yet, I am going to try my best to get my blog in fully functioning order, so I don’t have anything else to do on this thing but write.
When school is in, I need that kind of release. I’ll lose my damned mind if I don’t.
Anyway- I hope the weather is nice and everything goes well. And when you think of me, picture me standing beside this guy:
It is going to be a blast. Smiles all around.
And if you are lucky, I might even bring you back a postcard! (That means you Ross!)
The Internet Never Ceases to Amaze… and Bless? July 8, 2006
Posted by hiddenstream in Blogging, Computers & Internet, Random, Religion.3 comments
Somehow, in all of my extreme dorkishness, I found yet another very interesting site online tonight. My friends have actually told me I run across some of the most strange and bizarre sites they have ever seen. But damn, this one tops them all.
The site is digibless, and the concept is not unique at all….what is strange is the fact that I think these people are actually serious. They want to bless your files with the love and power of God Almighty. Apparently, they have tapped into some uncharted well of digital holy water and want to give it to the world. Very interesting….and very strange. To top it all off, they actually seem to believe this works; I wish I had more blind faith. Perhaps it would make my English papers “A” worthy if I blessed them before I printed them out.
But seriously, I did actually try this out for myself, with some random school document I had on my desktop. I got an actual certificate to verify my digital “blessing”. Great, now I absolutely have proof of Higher Being and his impact on my life because I can print some random slip off the internet. Thanks, but no thanks. My friends think I am crazy enough as it is.
*A side note….I have nothing against any religion or Christianity in any way. In fact, I am a very spiritual person. I just hate stupid people and stupid things. Bringing technology and true spiritual connection with God in the same realm is about as idiotic as chain-mail curses. Which people need to stop sending me by the way, or I’ll have to digibless your ass.*
A Brief Thought On My Addiction July 7, 2006
Posted by hiddenstream in About Me, Addiction, Bitchings, Daily Happenings, Personal.3 comments
Everything in moderation….
Everything in moderation….
Everything in moderation….
That has not been my philosophy on life… well, ever. I smoke relentlessly and enjoy almost every second of it. I know the dangers; I know the side-effects. Yet, frankly, I don’t care most of the time these days. I light up my Camels in spite of the world, in spite of the damned Surgeon General warnings they so conveniently slap on the side of the box. Yet, some of my friends still get on to me about it, even after all these years. I truly appreciate their concern, but this is a battle I must chose to tackle when I am ready. An addiction such as nicotine is a very serious affliction that must never be handled lightly. I will quit when I quit. I am just not ready yet.
It may be a justification, it may be an excuse to keep lighting up the cancer-sticks….but I am just not ready. College and adult life is just too damn stressful. Yes, it also may cause me to have a voice as rough and brash as an industrial solvent, but I have more serious and demanding problems to handle first. Please, please, please….no more crap about the smoking.
I love you all, and I don’t want to kill myself this way. Don’t keep asking me to look at my problems. I have won much bigger fights, struggles, and addictions; eventually, I will win this one too.
I am not ready to quit smoking.
While I Was Listening July 5, 2006
Posted by hiddenstream in About Me, Bitchings, Love, Music, Quotes and Lyrics, Random.add a comment
I was listening to some really good tunes today and felt like posting some lyrics that hit home for me. I know it is lame….but I don’t care. Music is a very big, important part of my life. I would never be the same without it. Below are some experts that were particularly griping for me today.
“She said – while you were sleeping
I was listening to the radio
And wondering what you’re dreaming when
It came to mind that I didn’t care
So I thought – hell if it’s over
I had better end it quick
Or I could lose my nerve
Are you listening – can you hear me
Have you forgotten”
“I feel like hell so come on over
Be a love machine and I could be your friend
Ain’t no shame feel strong for one another
Make a real true color come end to end then
God damn, change of pace
I think there’s still a piece of my heart on your face
It’s a shame to let it waste
How does it taste? How does it taste?“
“Now I’m down
And I wonder how I never got the burn
And if I’m ever going to learn
How lonely people make a life
One strain at a timeForgot about
Everything and everyone I needed before
Tryin’ to get a handle on a reason to shine
Pickin’ up the pieces that are falling behind takes time”
“No I would not sleep in this bed of lies
So toss me out and turn in
And there’ll be no rest for these tired eyes
I’m marking it down to learning
I am…Don’t think that I can take another empty moment
Don’t think that I can fake another hollow smile
It’s not enough just to be sorry
Don’t think that I could take another talk about itJust like me you got needs
And they’re only a whisper away
And we softly surrender
To these lives that we’ve tendered away”
“It’s amazing
How you make your face just like a wall
How you take your heart and turn it off
How I turn my head and lose it allIt’s unnerving
How just one move puts me by myself
There you go just trusting someone else
Now I know I put us both through hell”
I know it is a lot, but some of these words are exactly how I feel right now. That’s about all I want to say today.
Okay…Let’s Do a Recap July 1, 2006
Posted by hiddenstream in Daily Happenings.4 comments
It has been awhile since I have posted. Since the middle of last week I have been running around like crazy and didn’t really get a chance to sit down at a computer and blog about it all. Life catches up with you.
But after a few days of not writing, I have lot’s of blog worthy material saved up….are you ready for the recap? Here it goes.
Wednesday: Aquarium fun with Mom. We got passes back in January for my birthday, but when we went back then, it was incredibly crowded. We thought it would get better as the excitement and newness of the attraction wore off. Wrong! Wednesday was just as packed, (if not more) as it was in January. We headed out early and went shopping at Lenox . Shopping cures all. I some some fabulous new shoes and a wonderful silk dress. Why all this shopping you may ask….Well, I had to prepare to dress myself for Thursday evening; dinner at Chops.
Thursday: Kyle’s 21st birthday bash. His family had decided to treat us all with a lovely dinner at one of Atlanta’s finest steakhouses. Yummy. Chops was absolutely wonderful. Granted, it was a bit of a hassle getting up there from Carrollton…but it well worth the drive. Now, I have heard many people say it is overrated and pricey. I disagree completely! Wow…our service was great and the food melted in my mouth. I had the fillet; which I can now say was the best damn choice I made all weekend. The 40 dollar steak was done perfectly and while eating, I had no clue what else was going on at the table. It was pure carnivore bliss.
The night continued on with normal 21 year old drinking fun…lot’s of booze and liquor and, well, me being DD. Although, I did have a lot of fun in spite of that. Watching everyone get completely hammered and stumbling all over themselves is never a bore. Kyle took a few days to get over the hangover…but he has recovered to full health now and is on a flight to California as I type these words. He should have a wonderful time sitting on the beach reading his books a drinking his first legal Corona. Cheers.
Friday- This brings me to my last post. Me waking up tired and hungover and getting ready to drive to good ol’ North Carolina. I had promised Mom I would drive with her to pick up my little brother from his two week stint at camp. I was dead tired for the first couple of hours, but after a few cups of coffee, I was alive again and shopping in Commerce. (Oh yeah, my mother and I are notorious for making pit-stops, especially ones that involve us spending money at outlet stores.) We bought a few things and were on our way.
*A side note: Dave says I have been shopping to much this past week and may have a bit of a problem. I gave him the lecture about a women’s need to buy new clothes. He told me I was crazy and spoiled. Perhaps I am. Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps. 
But Cosmo said it was alright dammit!*
Anyway- that is why I have had problems posting lately. I will be on vacation soon…so once again there will be a lack of posting. I promise to make up for it though.
